Do you have any idea what it's like to not want to get out bed every morning, no wanted to go and deal with all the bullshit outside your bed? Do you even know what it feels like to feel completely alone while you know there are millions of misearable people just like you? How about what it's like to be completely repulsed by things you used to love? To feel completely lost in the dark and not really knowing if there's a way out? To not have the strength to feel like you can make it trough the whole day, let alone the next one, without breaking down? To not be able to explain how you feel at all? To have everyone constantly asking if you're okay until it's get to a point where no one asks, making you wonder if they don't notice or just don't care? To have no energy or drive to do anything? To feel completely worthless? To hate who you are and how you look? To feel trapped inside a world full of ugly things but being scared of what's on the other side? To be hurting constantly? To know there's no one to save you from the way you feel?
To know the only one who's really hurting you is yourself?
L'échec cuisant ne cesse de vous hanter, de vous terroriser, et c'est à ce moment là que vous savez que vous avez perdu.